stars

I see you, riding upon a stallion of grey and gold, trailing long spiraling pennants through the air. You climb atop plateaus and pause against the blue of the sky, like a great statuette slashing a canvas of brilliant milky sapphire. In the up tide of air, your hair shimmers in the breeze and glows like fine bronze strands. The garish sun worships you as you fall gracefully from your mount, standing upon the lush emerald of dew-laden grass. I envy you and your beauty, your freedom - who are you, this mysterious Narcissus who so invades my dreams?

The wind runs across my face, like gentle fingers, and the scent of vanilla and wildflowers and you erodes my senses. Even in the gulf between reality and dreams, you are so vivid, so lustrous, so intense. The endless depths of your eyes penetrate into me, swirling like stars in black obsidian, glinting and bearing into me like thousand darts of fire. Why do you gaze at me so? Clad in a swirling cloak of ebony and heavy boots which unearth the dust with every step you take; the thin, classic sword resting against your hip. You're a spectre, a phantom, a dream.

Through your lips soundless words issue out like empty promises, like porcelain cups falling to the ground, shattering into pieces. One day I will know what you are saying to me, one day I will be able to answer.

Like the dream I so make you out to be, you are fading away, eaten by dark at the edges, as you cry out in desperate gestures, as you reach out to me like I am stumbling away from you. But we are separated, we are two entities - lost between time and dimension and space.

You disappear, your lovely bronze hair and aquiline nose; your beautiful smile and grey-gold stallion. They become nothing but faint images, fading snapshots on moldy sepia. The garish sun becomes no more than a sparkle, and your intensity fades in my consciousness. I can't say I love you, I can't I say I hate you; I do not know you, but you seem to know me, as the tears leak from eyes that are like the night sky - they remain forever in my memory, even if all else has fallen away.

You are not wrong, those who deem, that this is but a dream within a dream.

Threw the stars ;10:43:00 AM

"Come, civil night,
Thou sober-suited matron, all in black,
And learn me how to lose a winning match,
Play'd for a pair of stainless maidenhoods:
Hood my unmann'd blood, bating in my cheeks,
With thy black mantle; till strange love, grown bold,
Think true love acted simple modesty.
Come, night; come, Romeo; come, thou day in night;
For thou wilt lie upon the wings of night
Whiter than new snow on a raven's back.
Come, gentle night, come, loving, black-brow'd night,
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun."

- ROMEO AND JULIET

Threw the stars ;5:31:00 PM

The Post That Resulted By Being Kena-ed By A Very Bored Naomi Seow Who Likes To Do Quizzes -WOOT-

01) single, taken or crushing?

- singleeee, i am teh numero uno (:

02) are you happy with your life now?

- I LOVE MY LIFE (:

03) when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?

- hurhur, i dunno! maybe? depends..on what God says!

04) have you ever had your heart broken?

- nopes.

05) do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?

- no la, of course not.

06) would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?

- hmm, depends. if he's really sorry then i'll forgive him. about taking him back..i'll go seek God first man. haha.

07) have you talk bout marriage with another before?

- yeas! actually during CE lesson, our teacher asked us to visualize our wedding. haha.

08) do you want children?

- haha dunno

09) how many?

- i dunno! lol

10) would you consider adoption?

- haha..ya.

11) if someone like you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?

- give me a bottle of ORANGE GLITTER *kirakiraa*

12) do you enjoy getting into a relationship?

- I dunno..haha. never bothered to think about it.

13) be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?

- no ex

14) do you believe in love at first sight?

- no not really..haha..after you read Twelfth Night, you don't really believe in thos ekind of stuff.

15) are you romantic?

- haha, if i want to be?

16) do you believe you can change someone?

- no, but God can (:

17) if you could married somewhere,where would it be?

- Edinbrough Castle

18) do you easily give in when you are fighting?

- Haha..depends what i'm fighting over.

19)do you have feelings for someone right now?

- nopes.

20) have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?

- eh no.

21) have you ever broken a heart?

- i dont think so..

22) if one day your best friend fall in love with the guy/girl you deeply in love with,what would you do?

- errr...dunno? honestly i don't care haha xD

23) are you missing someone now?

- haha hmm..friends?

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.Write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blog to let them know.

1. See Tingwei
2. Lucie
3. Sylvia
4.
5.

I CANT THINK OF ANYMORE LA.
hahaha.

i feel so wuliao.

Threw the stars ;9:57:00 PM

the B2 GOD family (like literally)
from darth hermes' point of view

otosan (father): Guo Quan :D

okasan (mother) : TING WEI! WHAHAHA. :) mrs lee joon ki! :D

onesan (oldest sister) : Fedora (Darth Hermes/mrs choi dong wook)

imoto (younger sisters) : Sylvia, Lucie

ototo (younger brothers) : Nelson, Darren (Lord Darth/mr song hye gyo)

yome (sister-in-law) : LYNN! yayness~! (: [Darren's wife]

mei (nieces) : Shermaine & Naomi (Darth Helen/mrs jeong ji-hoon)

[ Darren is Ting wei's and Guo Quan's son. Lynn is married to him, so she married into the family (:]

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-edited from Naomi Seow Ru-ting's post-

Threw the stars ;7:54:00 PM

Random Quotes From William Shakespeare's Twelfth Night
and other random thoughts

"Why should I not - had I the heart to do it -
Like th' Egyptian thief at point of death
Kill what I love? - a savage jealousy
That sometimes savours nobly! But hear me this.
Since you to non-regardance cast my faith,
And that I partly know the instrument
That screws me from my true place in your favour,
Live you the marble-breasted tyrant still.
But this your minion, whom I know you love,
And whom, by heaven, I swear, I tender dearly,
Him will I tear out of that cruel eye
Where he sits crowned in his master's spite.
Come, boy, with me, my thoughts are ripe in
mischief.
I'll sacrifice the lamb that I do love
To spite a raven's heart within a dove."

- Orsino, Act 5 Scene 1

Random thoughts!

Orsino has a hidden side to him. He is more than simply a conceited and romantic character, but rather, there is a dangerous, jealous and tormented side to him that is reflected in how he handles his betrayal and his unrequited love.

Reality and Illusion is quite a central theme to the play. It's most accurately summed up in what Feste says - 'Nothing that is, is so.' Viola says, 'I am not what I am'. Every character seems to have a hidden aspect to them, just like they have a face of reality.

Viola is physically and illusion when she is guised as Cesario. Her feelings are disguised too, especially he rlove for Orsino and her sorrow over the loss of her brother. She has to conceal them to survive.

Orsino conceals his true want and desire for someone to love and care for him with his pursuit of Olivia's affections and his murmurs of unrequited love. He hides an insecurity and a hunger for someone whom he can truly love in person, not just at a distance.

Olivia conceals her desire to be wed and her dislike for Orsino's pursuit at first with her mourning. Then, she openly expresses her love for Cesario with little regard for her social position. Yet, she hides her fear and doubt when she is about to marry Sebastian - so afraid of losing his love.

Malvolio conceals his love for Olivia, as well as his self ambition 'To be Count Malvolio'. His perception of his own reality is questioned when he is locked up in the dark room, and Sir Topas torments him with the question of his sanity, creating the illusion that he is mad by insisting the room is filled with 'barricadoes' and 'celestories' that allow light to enter. Yet, Malvolio hangs on to his sanity and doesn't believe Topas. Ironically, he is the only character who cannot come to terms with the reality of his character flaws and his behavior.

Irony is also interesting. There are many examples of dramatic irony in the play. They get quite sad when you think about them, especially when Viola is discussing about love with Orsino, and she can't tell him how she really feels. There must be such great emotional torment for her to have to gthrough that. And she speaks of her 'sister', how

"She never told he rlove,
But let concealment, like a worm i'th'bud,
Feed on her damask cheek. She pined in
thought,
And with a green and yellow melancholy
She sat like Patiece on a monument
Smiling at grief. Was this not love indeed?"

That was the most ironic, because it so aptly described her predicament. Such a dark sentiment is found in the festive play of Twelfth Night.

The play definitely has two sides, one of revelry and celebration, the other of the truth and reality of man's cruelty and the bittersweet pain of love. Of course, as this is a comedy, the ending works out well for the main characters. But what could have happened if it were a tragedy, and in the end Orsino mistook the marriage as a betrayal, and cast out Viola, whilst Olivia tried to woo Viola back but was pushed away by her in her grief, and Sebastian is murdered somewhere whilst trying to free Antonio. It could have all fallen apart. It could have been a dark play. One turn of events could have turned this entire play into a tragic tale of love's labours lost.

Feste is also an amusing character. He pops up in random places and injects humour into the play, even in serious situations like when Viola and Sebastian are reunited. He attempts to sound like a madman reading out Malvolio's letter. And yet, he is by far the most sane of all the characters, calmly arguing with witty comebacks and giving shrewd assessments of all the characters through coyly subtle jests. He is also neutral, a commentator, and the only one who seems to know what is going on in the lives of the characters.

Shakespeare masterfully weaves the playful sentiments of Twelfth Night together with the darker meaning of the play. Especially in the last scene, where characters rollercoaster form sadness, to glee, to anger, and to absolution right in the end. It is like the ultimate form of anarchy and chaos, yet it brings out the true natures of the many characters in Twelfth Night. The ending song has a bittwersweet, sombre and melancholic tone which more or less encompasses the entire play. Whilst at first sounding light-hearted and cheerful, a deeper meaning of man's growth into adulthood and the general behavior and chaos created by them in the process brings out the more serious tone of the song.

Through reading Twelfth Night, many things have been revealed. Above and beyond the central themes and events, it is linked to the lives we lead and the way we think.

Threw the stars ;4:59:00 PM

today,

i'm a little wiser,
a little beaten up,
a little tired,
a little muddled,
a little scared,
a little sad.

i'm also
learning to fight,
increasing my faith,
expanding my capacity,
clinging on to God.

i've seen
His love,
His provision,
His unfailing heart,
His goodness,
His greatness.

i'm holding together. i'm still here. i love God.
thank you leaders, Pastors. for always believing in me.
i'm going to grow from this
and make the devil regret.

Threw the stars ;10:07:00 PM

can there be double breakthrough? xD

it's like this whole week was leading up to this great seminar.
SCHOOLS.Pastor Joakim was ah-ma-zing.
the testimonies were absolutley awesome.
i was totally blown away.
i sat there, and my heart began to burn.
just like two years ago, the fire exploded into life.
Taking Cedar for Christ -- CFC 2006.

radical, making ourselves visible. we are where Jesus is. we are the Light of the World.
here i am, Lord, send me.
a bigger heart to love OTHERS.
impacting this generation.

people rising up to new levels, catching the fire, getting impacted.
schools are going to be taken.
hougang sec, sass, cgss, ytss, opss, ITE...
revival in the nations.

thanks God, for such an amazing weekend.
thanks Pastor Joakim, for coming down to SG and giving us such a great time and setting our hearts on fire
-- or believing in us, just like our Pastors do.

great things are going to happen in Singapore.

God took me spiritual sighseeing yesterday during QT.
i saw
revival in Cedar, people getting saved behind canteens and in hallways.
younger generations turning to God.
i saw
leaders rising up like Lights in the darkness, people taking schools and reaching out.
i saw
people becoming influential, glorifying God and leading people to Christ.
i saw
hearts touched, lives changed, cgs starting
break through and growth.
God moving so mightily.
fire fire fire PASSION!

it's all back.
i was young then, i'm still young now.
i'll do whatever it takes-- grow, learn, be discipled, rise up, hunger, plan, administrate,, make things happen.

it's not easy, but i'll give God all that i can.
i'm raising my staff, i'm having faith.

CFC!=revival (:
fighterplanes; FLIGHT
impacting this generation.
1+1 = 110
BZONEBAGUS

glory to glory, faith to faith.
let's run this race.

Threw the stars ;10:30:00 AM