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Acts 4:13 (New King James Version)

New King James Version (NKJV)

The Name of Jesus Forbidden

13 Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were uneducated and untrained men, they marveled. And they realized that they had been with Jesus.

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as i read about you more and more, i want to be like you, because you were like Him.
how cryptic can i get?
it's been great spending time with You, i couldn't ask for more.
it's like You're constantly doing things to me that i don't understand, but i bet i will someday..
right now, the mistakes and pitfalls of the past seems so foolish and stupid. life is only You -- beyond the ministry, the work, the planning, the character, the discipleship, the pains and the hurts and the hardships; the joys and the satisfactions and the love.
in the end it's just about You, coming back to You.

i want to be like Peter.
i may have denied the only truth, but i want to be used by You again.
i want to be part of that rock your church is built on.
i want people to see my boldness, know that i am untrained and uneducated, and know that i have been with You.

after Your own heart, beating with every beat, living in wisdom, seeing in the supernatural (supernatural highway). always faithful, always loyal, always fighting.
for the rest to turn, it starts with us.

wow.
i so need to tell sam about all this hahaha.

Threw the stars ;12:22:00 PM

things are finally settling down!
it's that after-exam feeling you get, when you know that you'll never need to do work again. never need to step into school again.. (:
it's called FREEDOM.

then again, the strangeness of how i've actually finished a year in lasalle, of how everything is just ending like that, abruptly and clinically. it's kind of weird. but still, i can rest assured int he fact that i lived through foundation year in lasalle. seems to have some odd satisfaction about it. even though i don't feel too good about it, i will just pray and trust God to give me the best.

can you imagine the great surprise of receiving 3 smses from 3 great guys when you're chionging your work the night before and you're tired like anything? it was sweet, so sweet, henderson-industrial-park sweet. zhiyi, darren, bx. God really moves in their lives. i am amazed at how the little things matter so much.

it's even sweeter when people call you up after your assessment, trying to find out how you did, kan cheong for you... noel and elyn!

and all the other random people who have had to bear with my crankiness in one way or another, haha, alton, michelle yao, colin, SAMANTHAA!

how can i not talk about SAM!
hehe. well lets just say that without her there to always listen to me and encourage me and help me. . . it's unthinkable. i really love sam (:

well, a good way to spend my first day of freedom was to go find zhiyi at TP with sam.. should i mention how good tp food is? good and cheap. when's lasalle gonna get the idea? haha. anyway, followed sam back to church, did some work in office while sam did hers, got stressed out by Colin, but with good reason. Managed to finish up the effects template though, which is a good thing.

Suddenly got reminded of Jianming's sharing about usher ministry and al the process, of everything he shared. so amazed by the level usher is at. even more inspired, that effects HAS to go to the next level. it HAS to. i really just want to tell colin all these but i haven't found the time. meaning i should sms him soon.
haha.

OH NO Its almost 12.30

okay, shall prepare to gout with MARMEE and pack my clothes.
(:

Threw the stars ;12:14:00 PM

it's 4.43 am.
i am this close to KO-ing on my laptop. *makes space with finger and thumb*
i will not chiong projects ever again T.T
and all alone too. hahahaha.
God, pls help me pass. I really need to pass.

right now, i'm a little scared.
but.
i will do my best, give my best, pray and have faith and attack everything that's in front of me right now.
come on, just until wednesday and this will all be over.
i know He's on my side.

*takes a deep breath*

Work I've done:
1. 2/3 canvases
2. 2/2 digital pieces
3. 3/9 collages

Work left:
1. 1/3 canvas
2. Printing
3. 6/9 collages
4. Touch up drawings
5. Touch up canvases
5. Sketchbooks
6. Small canvas

i have a feeling it will be impossible to sleep tomorrow. haha.
oh well.

i'm gonna go pray, because i really need it right now.
if not, i think i might lost my mind!
and then, sleep (:

gd morning, gd bye

Threw the stars ;4:42:00 AM

i just came home from another great day.

i had dinner with Yassy on Wednesday, and with Charleston today. What more can anyone ask for man? lol.
i feel so privileged and touched by how great our leaders are.. and all the more our Pastors must be just like them, or even more amazing. Well they learn from the Best (:
For Yassy and Charleston to take time out from their super busy schedules to just have a dinner with us, pay for all our food.. i really feel loved beyond loved. I'm sure that their time is very precious to them, and they were willing to spend it with us.
Even more than that, they would take out time to tell each of us personally what's our next point in our walk with God, to encourage us, to get to know us.
It felt so good to just sit and listen to the man and woman of God. Learnt so many things... felt so loved and so encouraged by them.

Pastors and leaders in this church, they're the best ever. They're extra mile people. They're incredible. they're the best friends, best spiritual parents, best spiritual leaders in the world. I wouldn't trade anything for them. I would never!

That's right, I'm keeping th vision in front of me. I want to support my leaders and hold the burden and run with them, for them, for God. I want to catch the same anointing and faith and passion they have.

it's really 2.0.

Colin shared with us so many cool things. I'm so inspired and challenged and encouraged by him. The ministry has a direction and a vision now. It's gonna be awesome, so awesome. Bx, Evonne, lets rise up and hold effects together. Let's bring this ministry up to a new level. Let's serve God with all our hearts.

at the end of the day, I wanna give God my best in all that I do. even if i am tired and i'm stressed and i'm on the verge of crashing. i will give my best to Him !
simplicity simplicity.
i want to continue living a genuine christian life.

Threw the stars ;12:10:00 AM

okay so, im actually blogging twice in a week. haha. i am amazed.
today was such a cool day. actually, these past few days have been such cool days.
movie and dinner with Ivan and the leaders was so different from just any dinner... we learn things and have fun at the same time. Seeing how Ivan lives, how Ivan works, that's pretty cool too. and i gotta say, chongpang nasi lemak is awesome man. it's seriously something God must have created for man. And the tauhuey.. heavenly!

have been hanging out with evonne and ame alot too. they're really quite special. dzone and bzone seem to be so different in style and flow and anointing, but we all have that common something that holds us together. that mutual feeling of knowing what the other is thinking, seeing the same viewpoints. a flow withing a flow. hahas. sweet.
its different, seeing what other zones are like.

how can i not talk about michelle yao and my lunch wuth her. lol. it was sweet too. it was like an hour of time stolen from a day to just enjoy the company of someone you've been through almost everything in life together with. totally same heart, same flow, same thinking... same love for God and same tenacity to keep pressing on. it's been too long since i've had a talk with her..

been such a powerful few days. Christian and Colin both shared really cool stuf about ministry and taking our ministires to the next level, and it's all so vivid and poignant and fresh with anointing. it fills us with new vision. such great leaders God has give our church...

i can't believe my brain is still functioning. waking up at 8am to send someone off to NS and finding God along the way. NS men are actually quite nice. haha. you can ask me more about it when you see me... i have a long and funny story about my NS experience to tell. but it's all good. it's all worth it to win his hear for Christ (:

holler, holler.
my eyes are falling shut.
Cg tomorrow will be 2.0!
looking forward to egg sandwiches tmr...

Threw the stars ;2:01:00 AM

its 12.40am, and i get the rare time to blog a nice long post, so i hope.

version 2.0, it seems this weekend i have finally grasped the full concept of what 2.0 means. what it means for the church, for our Pastors, for the leadership, for the ministries.. what it means for me as a person. it's time for 2.0 in my life. fresh anointing, new beginnings.

the sweetness of everything, and every challenge that comes my way. knowing i can overcome it because someone much bigger than me will do the job.
it's about the anointing, about chasing the man of God, about hunger and faithfulness.
all these things are the things that make my life beautiful, a joy to wake up to every morning.
these, and that special someone...
the one who steals my heart,
and makes me come alive with His presence.
Him, of scarred hands and the ability to speak life to dead bones.

power, power indeed (:

i was just thinking how funny it is with God. Sometimes, when you really need something for the wrong reasons, He doesn't give it to you. But when you find yourself not wanting it anymore, it comes to you as a pleasant shock.
Then again, it's only at that time when our hearts are prepared and our characters at that level to handle it, to take it with maturity of the spirit.
That's why God is God, and i am not. hhahaha.

with more things to do in life, comes a time of molding and a time for mistakes. i won't be afraid because i want to learn and grow from them, and i know above it all my leaders will still love me. God will still be my father, till the end.
i feel excited just thinking about all of it.. even through my tiredness and apprehension and euphoria, some part of me remains calm and composed and buzzes with excitement at the coming things. A new level in ministry, in leadership, in my own walk with God.
the vision burns. the flame doesnt dim, the oil never runs out.
it comes from the holy spirit.

on a sidenote,
DEAR SAM, pls get well soon and take care. i will be praying for you, miss you lots! hahhhs (:

administration is slowly becoming my best friend in life =/ i am starting to wonder why God is doing this to me. if that's what it takes for 2.0, if that's what it takes...
hahaha.
i can't wait to dye my fading hair a nice rich gold colour.
trying not to think about the endless pile of work i need to get done by this week, otherwise my great tribulation will come much earlier than the rest of the world's.

hmmm, how God never fails to provide (:

Threw the stars ;12:39:00 AM