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i have decided to blog because
i have nothing else to do! haha.
the internet is so boring. i wonder how i was able to survive last time with no life and living on the net every day =x

anyways! i am at a funeral now, and somehow i managed to hack into a connection so yes! i have internet! xD
CG today was good. really refreshing; i totally miss all those times in CG.
can't wait for o levels to end!
can't wait for all the exciting things to start. it's coming soon! a time of growth and breakthrough.
gonna keep praying and keeping myself strong in God
awaiting the time for BREAKTHROUGH!

O levels, i will conquer you! amen!

haha.
can't wait for service. so tired now. i managed to ton yesterday! hopefully i can ton tonight, even though it will be supe rlate by the time i get home from the funeral. hurr.
so depressing! i want to stay in church longer! i love church! yay!
hahaha.

okays
feeling weird now. i think i will sleep a while. haha.
laters!

i love my life!!!

Threw the stars ;7:47:00 PM

One. Think of 10 interesting things about yourself, they've gotta be true.
Two. Think of 5 false things about yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1) I used to have long hair.
2) I have a britney spears album.
3) I like glitter.
4) I have broken a bone before.
5) I have studied 8 hours straight before.
6) I have been wrapped in toilet paper as a mummy before.
7) I used to make fake swords.
8) I have migraines.
9) I had dengue before.
10) I like orange chocolate.
11) I had a dog before.
12) I have never dyed my hair before.
13) I have never won an essay competition before.
14) I can roll my tongue
15) I own a dress.

5 ppl will have to do this!
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no idea xD
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Threw the stars ;12:29:00 AM

TODAY'S DEVOTION 17 OCTOBER
The Father Wants to Give You Whatever You Ask

You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you.
John 15:16

Jesus refers time and time again to the topic of prayer and answer to prayer. The world is full of people who pray. People of all religions pray. It is not prayer in itself that is interesting but rather the fact that God answers prayer. Jesus tells us how prayer answer comes. He says, “Whatever you ask in My name.” The key is His name. It is the name of Jesus, because of what He has done, that enables God to answer the prayers of His people.

But other requirements are also mentioned in this verse. We cannot merely pray for anything in whatever fashion. We must know and live in His will. Jesus says that He has chosen us. He has determined that we should go. He has determined that we should bear fruit. So we must acknowledge and respond to this call. We must get moving; we must go out and do what He has asked us to do. Then we will be fruitful.

When these conditions are met Jesus promises we can ask whatever we want and we will receive it. In obeying our calling, in working toward bearing fruit we need unlimited answer to prayer. Therefore, Jesus assures us that we can ask whatever we want. If you do not believe your prayers will be answered, examine your attitudes. Search your heart and see if you are where you ought to be. Disobedience in your life renders this verse invalid. The promise of answered prayer is for those who have responded to the call to go out and bear fruit.

- Ulf Ekman

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it's time to harvest; i will be fruitful. i am called to bear fruit!
there's gonna be an explosion - souls saved, people's lives changed, leaders rising up.
taking the o levels, doing His work. keeping things tight.
PRAYING - 10:10 (:
can't wait for the growth. it's so exciting.
i have faith in the name of Jesus.

Threw the stars ;6:01:00 AM

haha! the toilet is such an amazing place (:
i randomly picked up this magazine and read this article, and it really inspired me, especially on that day when i needed faith.

God Put a Dreamer in You
Rev Kenneth Copeland

I charged down to Beaumont full of hope and enthusiasm. I'd been dreaming of preaching to thousands so I was expecting a landslide. But what I found when I got there was a mess. A flue epidemic had hit the church and the first morning the only ones who showed up for the meeting were the pastor, his wife and two other people. The next meeting two more people showed up.

At first, I let that get to ne. I let it cut off my dream. But after I spent some time in prayer, the Lord showed me 1 Peter 5:6-7: "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you."

I saw it. I had to roll all the care of the meeting over on Him. Carrying the care was killing my dream. The care said, "There's no hope of you having a meeting here." But faith said, "I don't have a care. I'll preach whether anyone comes or not. That's what I'm called to do -- preach the Word. Period!"

I got back on my feet again. I decided the first thing we needed to do was get these people healed. So the pastor and I took our anointing oil and went out praying for the people. Every one of them got healed, except for one man who just refused to get out of bed.

The next service, I went in and preached like there were 15,000 people there. I preached all over the room. I preached up and down the aisles. There were still less than a dozen people but I was shouting the victory like the place was full. As I remember, there was one sinner there and the rest were believers, but that one sinner got saved. As far as I was concerned, that was 100 percent success -- we were having a landslide!

Afterward, somebody said, "That poor preacher hasn't ever been to seminary. He's so dumb he doesn't know the difference between a landslide and a flop!"

He didn't realize that I was a dreamer. He didn't know that while I was preaching, I was seeing that place full. I was seeing people crowded in until they were hanging out the windows. Before the week was out, that dream had become hope... that hope had clothed itself with faith... and the building was literally running over with people. It only held about 130, and by Friday night they had to raise the windows so the people outside could hear. We stayed and held two servuces a day for 21 days. It was glorious.

That was almost 40 years ago now, and I've been dreaming Holy Ghost dreams ever since. I've spent my life preaching that Jesus is Lord to multiplied thousands and flying from the top of the world to the bottom and all the way around. Over the yeas, my dreams have gotten bigger -- and I'm not finished yet.

"Yeah, but Brother Copeland, that's just you. You're a dreamer."

So are you, my friend. If you're a born-again believer, God has put dreams inside of you, and He's given you a servant called faith to bring those dreams to pass.

So stir yourself up. Stir up your divine imagination and reach out into the heavenlies. Immerse yourself in the Word of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit and dare to dream the dreams He gives you. Bring your hope to a higher level by declaring the Word, and keep meditating that Word until your hope is clothed with faith, and that faith reaches into the realm of the spirit and makes your dream a reality.

Don't let fear or past disappointments hold you back. Plant your dream like a mustard seed so it can grow up and become greater than the impossibilities in your life. Plant it so it can grow up and become a source of blessing, encouragement and support for others.

God is waiting for you to dream. The people you were born to bless are waiting for you to dream. So don't let the devil stop you.

Threw the stars ;11:37:00 AM

and i thought today wouldn't make me sad. =x

well, i don't know how else to start. Graduation Day - i'll never forget it.
everything went according to plan, but i think what was really touching was what mr goh did for us. he wrote us all a card with our class photo inside, and put it inour testimonial envelopes. right after we got our testi, we read it. i was super touched. yepps. i realised that he really did so much for our class, taking us from our terrible state of mind and giving us confidence and pushing us to work harder and believe in ourselves. no teacher ever bothered about us, but he did.

then we sang Because You loved Me and other songs on stage. Sherry started crying and basically a lot of people broke down. I was really sad, but it's like a sweet kind of sadness. I wanted to enjoy my last day in cedar.
after saying our goodbyes, taking lots of photos with come teachers, i left to walk around the school alone.

started thinking a lot as i walked down the corridors. absolutely no one on the sec4 level, so i was in solitude. haha. it was nice - nostalgic. i would never step on to that level again. it was the last time i was going to be officially a student of Cedar Girls' sec. last time i would be crapping with my friends in class.

on the way to meet the others at the foyer, i went up to our prayer spot and prayed for a while, one last time. then i left in a state of melancholy! haha. not really. just was in the middle of thinking.

SA open house was pretty okay, but uneventful. yepps. service was really good. it fit what i was feeling, like God had planned it.

so i came home.
watched the video mr goh did for us.
and now i feel nostalgic again! haha.
i love 4zedd.
we came so far together. yepps.
time passes too fats sometimes. haha.

but yeahs, i thank God for a great life.
(:

(this post is like so random las)
thanks mr goh -

Threw the stars ;9:06:00 PM

&today, i am feeling wistful, reminiscent, nostalgic.

officially, today marks my last day in Cedar.
it's so strange - four years have passed so fast. feels like just a while ago, i walked into my sec1 classroom, totally clueless, and got immersed in culture. feels like just a while ago that we trained under the scorching sun in ridiculous costumes for National Day. seems like just an eyeblink away, me and alethea tlaking about anime in the canteen whilst drinking lime juice one afternoon.
seems like just a while ago..
just a while..

i was 13. now i'm 16.

the hallways of the classrooms i walked along everyday. i will wak along them one last time tomorrow after Grad. but today, today is officially the end of my life here.

i've grown a lot. i've changed a lot.

trainings in rain or shine - the gym and the javelin and the discus - drills with broken cones.
extra lessons after school - sun blaring down during jogging as we complain.
the chill of 3zed classroom - dreams of coffee machines - the dusty cushions - holes in the floor - smuggling food every day - the judgement panel - pringles cans - meaningless fun about jrock & anime & manga & chinese serials.
mugging for o levels - mutual stress and insanity - the bigness of the windy classroom - mr goh trying to salvage our class - maria and i and the guitars - smses under the table - talking nonsense with cynthia/sherry - the piano with joy.
all the things i love.
all the people and friendships i treasure.
it suddenly hit me -- i made some friends whom i really treasure and whom i will miss.
it's so weird, not to see them ever again.

i suppose, i can't say i hate my school. i mean, there are things i don't like about it, and at some point i might think it totally sucks. but well.
i guess i do love my school.

and i love 4zed too.
i realised that i wouldn't ever hope to be in any other class.
we've been through a lot together - good and bad.
some of my best memories and funnest times happened here.

but yes. i've grown. i'm not the same girl who came in, innocent 13.

graduating class of 2006 - we're explosive.i love my school, i love my class, i love my friends, i love my life.

thank you God, that you've blessed me with these people in my life (:

Threw the stars ;3:42:00 PM

i am studying till 4am today!
dear God, PLS KEEP ME AWAKE HAHA.
xD

i have..lots of math papers to look forward to. but nevermind! AE! (:
workworkwork!

Threw the stars ;10:05:00 PM

this weekend marks another wonderful weekend in my life. haha (:
really happy that people had the courage to go up an receive. actually, i wasn't intending to go up and get prayed for, but as i stood there i though ah, i'm here anyway. so i went. it was..refreshing. been spiritually rather dry this week, and it was just good to be in God's presence, just for a while - totally submerged in it.

yeas! lots of things happened this week, and it was rather draining. i believe the stretch is back in my life - time for expansion!

God, I pray for REVIVAL (:

getting the stretched feeling again, the feeling of having too many things to do and too little time. it's good. it means its time to break through to another level.

i want to inspire people! i want to bring them higher and to greater places in God. i want God to touch them and move so mightily in their lives.

exams end next week for the juniors.
i'm going to bring in harvest - with faith, all things are possible.
amen!

if no one sparks the revival, i will.

thank God for my life.

Threw the stars ;10:06:00 PM

hello (:
i've decided to blog about my very productive morning. I have replied all my emails! x)
and I got some smses about the cards we put up in the toilets in school. hehe. some good stuff I heard so far. Really praying that this is gonna spark the Revival in Cedar again. Praying that God will anoint every card to brighten someone's day and touch someone's heart with the love of Jesus (:

can't wait to see the response first hand, for myself.
can't wait to make a difference in my school.
one of the things Pastor Joakim said which really stuck i my mind - change the atmosphere of your school, from darkness into light !

i'm so excited! (:
hate o levels! mugging every day. so saddening. haha. but yes, I will believe God for 9 points! amen!
o levels, I WILL CONQUER YOU.
haha (:

faith faith FAITH!
i see miracles. impacting my generation.
love you lots, God.

how much i've grown from when i first met You. its amazing, and it's because of You.

Threw the stars ;11:04:00 AM