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well
like 10 days later and i finally blog again, just to show i'm not dead on my blog yet. haha.
let me tell you, disney songs are the absolute coolest things right now. lol. every ops crew should know the chorus to Hakuna Matata. its mandatory.

okay what am i talking about? for once im not so sure.
i just had 4 days of myriad emotions and things happening out of nowhere, being thrown at me. and i think sometimes its just crazy how so many crazy things can happen at one time. but i find increasingly that its just God being His usual self challenging me beyond what i know. and yeah, its cool that He does it cos then, i find myself conquering. and conquering is always good. always . hahahs.

i miss pastors... its been so long since i've last seen them.

i have to say this. i really have to... i have amazing leaders!
i can't imagine my life without them. i can't imagine going through all the things i go through without them there. they just rock.. Charleston, Ivan, Sam...
they just love us so much.

woahhoho, camp's tomorrow and i still haven't come close to packing yet. i'm unfortunately rather inefficient. i should start soon yea? yeah. hahahas.
i cant wait for it! hanging out with younger people has made me feel VERY VERY OLD. but its all good cos theyre funny and fun and awesome! :D
hmmmm.

okay i have come to the end of the blogpost cos im kinda out of things to blog about LOL.
my mind stopped functioning 5 hours ago. its running on orange juice XD

gdnight & gdbye

Threw the stars ;1:00:00 AM

okay so, i'm at wenqi's house and it's 3.27am and i'm still not sleep.
cos i decided to blog. haha. randomly and for no particular reason.
honestly i'm kinda tired but i don't know why i'm still here blogging!
well, its been an eventful few days. got so many emotions its impossible to describe everything fully.
im just constantly amazed at God's faithfulness in my life. and watching lives change around me, people catching that dna that makes us so uniquely heart of God is just the sweetest experience in the whole world. its what really keeps me going sometimes when i wake up in the morning and think of all the things i have to do.

my heart's cry? (:
it cries out to be more like the man and woman of God - my Pastors.
it cries to get the same anointing that Charleston, Ivan and Samantha carries.
it cries to watch the power of God turn lives 360 degrees around.
it cries to give my best to a service and create a platform for Pastors and the presence of God.
it cries to see revival in the schools.

is it too much to desire? i dont think so man!

i think that sometimes frustration helps us to grow in our love for people even more. to just put everything aside and say hey, at the end of it all, its not about me and how i feel, but what really pleases Him.

hmm, thoughts at wee hours of the morning? hahaha.

this is really a season of stretching. i think its exactly how Pastor put it. you can never really get a hold of God.
ever since that one day that the vision came back into my heart... God's never let me rest since. its level after level, molding after molding, experience to experience. Constantly under pressure, constantly learning how to deal with it. there is no comfort zone, just space to be stretched and grow more in Him.
its really a journey.

I remember a long time ago I was listening to a sermon by Pst Phil Pringle. he said that God takes your heart and stretches it.... and stretches it and you cry out,No God! stop! and He replies, Just a little more... and continues to stretch every time you think you're gonna give up. And when at last He lets go, your heart is so big and stretchable that you can cover almost anything with it.
Beautiful picture eh? Elastic heart ahhaah.
well, i want to be a spiritual rubber band (:

God keeps bringing the word of the season back into my mind.
Speak with boldness and wisdom, and people will know that I have been with Him.
2 things in my life i need to get right;
character- faith, boldness, wisdom
spiritual- hunger, worship, anointing
its the season, the season for growth.

jiaen, dee, zee.
we're gonna make a great team.
the foundation of generations. let's dream (:

Threw the stars ;3:26:00 AM

man this is so random. haha, just realised that my blog looks kinda sad without any photos, so up they go!

today was such an amazing day.. it was a great worship session with zhiyi and jiaen. it's on thing to encounter God, and another thing altogether to encounter God together. it's sweet! lol. so happy and proud of zhiyi... he's grown so much since just a month ago when he first came.

speaking of which, i've come to the realisation that time is passing incredibly fast.
Red Rain is coming in like 2 weeks time!
What's Red Rain?
gosh, you're so out of it if you don't know. it's only the coolest, chic-est, freshest rock band with a sound for a new generation. check it out.
http://www.redrain.sg

i went rollerblading for the first time in my life on monday. yes, i so need to talk about that... lol. i still can't rollerblade, but its ok. despite falling down like half the time, it was fun. haha. sam, wendy and weiling are all super funny. and wendy must have been quite stressed trying to teach me. oh well, sweet (:
my toe is swelling! it hurts! i dont know why!
halfway through blading, my lecturer calls me up and tells me i've got interview on wednesday... myriad emotions man, really. but the interview went well, i felt. it's really by the grace of God that it all worked out.

every day is like learning something new about God, getting one step closer to Him.

lol, was just thinking random thoughts just now.
its gonna be so funny seeing bx in school in aug. totally weird.
im looking forward to finearts (:
i just realised another thing.
i will be seeing koonyew alot too o.O

hahhha, thats a good thing to me .
friends are the best things in the world,
(other than Jesus, and paddlepop)

Threw the stars ;12:46:00 AM