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it's the first time in ages i am blogging, but hey i am (:
i cut my hair after a 5 months of not doing it... alright, so it was 6 months but well. heh. jacky did a good job. i like the back of my head.

there's such a great burden on my heart..
our CG needs to be a team.
was watching Remembering the Titans today with Ivan and the rest of the leaders. i love how they were a team - a real, solid team, who stuck through the hard times and the good times together. Who were a team in camp and a team when the whole world was against them.
The leadership of Gerry Bertier was exactly the kind of leadership that inspires people.. to take that first step of faith and be the one to pull the whole team together...
just like what Ivan's email said, loving the work you do, even if it's difficult or it's tiring.

i'm so set on building this CG.
i'm so set on growing B40.
we will grow... i know we will. i can see it. i will not be discouraged.
i'm going to build the foundations, build a team that not just plays to win, but plays with love, with integrity, with loyalty and with tenacity.
20 for 40.
i see it. lives getting changed by the power of God.

at the end of the day, it all comes back to Him.

i love the work that i'm doing. it's not just a job to me, not just the motion but every life is a life that has the potential to be used by God for amazing things - an uncut diamond.

i so love Dark Knight. it's a movie we all gotta watch as a CG. yeah man, next week lets go! haha.
the first good movie i've watched in a long time - it's a reflection of true courage and paying the price.
alrights, it's getting late. i shall leave with the last lines of Dark Knight to mark the end of my post (:

"Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now...
And so we'll hunt him, because he can take it.
Because he's not a hero.
He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector...a dark knight. "

Threw the stars ;2:36:00 AM

okay so, this is just a random post thats incredibly random but hey i realised some really random things.
i went blogsurfing a while because.. i don't know why. haha. it was a random urge. i realised something really interesting.
the difference between value systems are so glaring when you actually observe things and people. and the way they talk and how they see things.
Pastor Lia said something really funny during discipleship class... about how the world thinks we're wasting time but we think they're wasting time too. irony? i think it's more than that. it's about the values in our lives that are different.

they say, party at the club baby. we say, party when that soul gets saved.
they say, money and fame and glory. we say, money and fame and glory for Him, to Him, because of Him.
they say, don't waste your time on something that doesn't give you anything back. we say, what we do give us more than anything this world could give us.
they say, God who? God where? We say, God there, don't you see Him in the sunrise and the rainbow painted across the sky?

it's weird because people are always telling us that we are stupid fools and we should really be
"focusing on your studies and make it big. thats all that matters."
"thinking about your future, your job."
"a student first, a christian later."

value system!
what matters more... seeing souls saved or climbing that ladder to all the riches in the world?
i would rather die knowing one life was changed because of God working through me,
than live a fulfilling life of wealth and status and power, but dying on a cold hospital bed, unloved, unremembered, just another rich person to add to the death toll.
yea, it frustrates me sometimes why people think we are such idiots...
there's more than just ourselves to care about!
there's a world out there that needs a change.

haha okay. i wonder why i'm feeling this so strongly but yeah, i am.
can really see Pastors' heart and what they believe in.. and i so love it. i so want to be just like them. i know it's not easy but that's all i ask for... to be just like my Pastors.
they are just so amazing.

haha ok i think im gonna turn in soon.. if not i will be even more sick when i wake up in the morning and my nose will never stop running.

gdnight & gdbye

Threw the stars ;2:11:00 AM

Let's build this church, this CG, together - For God, for people.
Love God, love people, love life.
Simplicity, Substance, Sonship.

Titus 1:7-9 (New King James Version)

7 For a bishop^[a] must be blameless, as a steward of God, not self-willed, not quick-tempered, not given to wine, not violent, not greedy for money, 8 but hospitable, a lover of what is good, sober-minded, just, holy, self-controlled, 9 holding fast the faithful word as he has been taught, that he may be able, by sound doctrine, both to exhort and convict those who contradict.

Threw the stars ;2:11:00 PM